Hey, theres been lotsa stuff goin on recently and its made me have quite the new view of myself.
i have realised that i have been a complete prick to say the least.
I therefore want to sincearly apologise to anyone that i have hurt, upset or in any way offended, that was not my intention.
I am truly sorry to each and every one who reads this message and feels wronged, and to anyone who doesn't read it...only they won't know.

now 02:08 early wednesday morning and i dont know (02:09) what im thinking. Ihave so many thoughts in my head right now that as soon as i remember one it is gone, forgotten, replaced by the next one.
this is quite frustarting so i thought i would right them down heer so i could see them, and save them. Of course i thought about this whilst trying to watch TV at 12:30 but by the time i got to the Pc i had forgotten why i needed the Pc so i started looking aimlessly round the net instead. Also frustrating as there were about 5/6 things i wanted to do on here and so far i have only remebered three.
Hopefully a list of thoughts will help me remember more thoughts...so here goes;
deviantart - catalouge thoughts
monster - look for job
research weed - why? not sure but i know i want to do it.
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nope cant remember anymore for now. There is however one thought that is constantly near the surface of my mind "HOW CAN I GET LOTS OF MONEY WITH LITTLE EFFORT?"
This however is very scarcely possible as it is widely known as 'the american dream', i prefer to call it the human dream as almost everyone is out to do it. With all this competition it is rare that an individual can find an idea/ service/ product that no-one else has thought of or actioned. So, the very question becomes "what can i think of that has never been done before?" It must be something with public interest, something people will pay for, something...awesome.
Maybe i could write a book, or a film, a play, songs.
Maybe i could invent some new contraption so people can sit on their arses more.
Maybe i could create a fantastic band.
Maybe i will go to sleep tonight and have a dream which will point me in the right direction.
Maybe i could win the lottery.
None of these seem likely, but all have at least a slim chance of working if i put my mind to it. Therein lies the problem, even that, for me can be too much work.
People tell me to stop being silly or stupid, to wake up to the real world and realsie things like that are not going to happen to me.....and maybe i should. But i won't, not for a while at least because things like that do happen, even against the odds, and despite the chances being very very low, there is still a chance that it could happen to me.
So, for now i shall continue to wish and dream that i can 'get rich quick' whilst watching others work their asses off, and having as much fun as i possibly can on a tiny budget from what little work i do, just enough not to get fired.

Peace out my brothers and sisters.

Well im at work and its 16:34. I am bored, none of my team is here and i want to try to avoid doing any work till i go home in 26 minutes. I therefore thought i would try Sams methods of wasting time and waste your time as well....ooooh.....16:35.....!
Thats better, jacket off. Well i wonder how much time i can waste just by sitting here and typing absolute drivel...i wonder where it will go, what will i end up talking about? how will i get there? why did i get there? where did the hippo come into it? and where is he now?
Read on and many if not all of these questions will/ may/ wont be answered.
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damn, writers block
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Ah-ha!.....no.......i lost my weed this morning, last night it was on the table, i woke up bleary eyed at seven thirty and swear i saw it on the table still, yet when i actually get up after sleeping another hour (making me late for work) it is gone! This means three things could have happened to it: Toz took it/ smoked it.
Kieran took it/ smoked it
My dad took it/ threw it away (which would suck)
i searched everywhere for it on my lunch but to no avail, it is most frustrating as i want to get high!!! there was only a bit, but enough for a few shotties at least .
16:40
i have a bull clip, they are cool, well handy and with one hell of a gripping power, i was going to use it in a pencil firing contraption but, alas, i do not have all the pieces i need i.e more, bigger bull clips.
doo-doo dooooo deeee deeee dooo da-dum de dummmm
paaaaaaa pa-pa de-doooo hippo la la fo fi fummm, fum pa

wow, i cant even type sing well, i wish i could sing, it is one of the things i always wish i was good at, i love to express myslef through song, to let everyone know how im feeling by singing great songs. However when i open my mouth to tune people think the air raid sirens are back in use. I still sing, just not as loud as i would wish to.
i don't really care i sound awful, t'is just annoying.
here are the things i have always wanted to do (in no particular order), and shall do before i die:
sing well, bunjee jump (done), have kids, fly freestyle, get laid, ski (done), find passion, explore the world,
there are others but i have a terrible memory............
i have honestly just forgotten what i was going to write.....BUM!

oh yeah! did you know an average pine tree, when properly pulped up, can make 476637 pieces of A4 plain paper......lots, but still not enough to warrant destroying out world for something to write on and throw away. Use black/white boards people!!! or tell a story on the net, or with interpretive dance or something!! 16:52. computers exist, so use them to store important info on, but NOOO we need hard copies of everything incase the system goes down...blah de blah BALLS!
BACK UP THE FUCKING SYSTEM THEN YOU TWATS! MAKE IT FAILSAFE!

grrr, fools that run things. if sensible people were put in charge of things everything would run lots smoother and easier.

anyhoo im off now, it is 16:54 and i need to shut down my computer, and leave to meet kieran! woot! thanx sam for the time wastage ideas, very helpful.





oh yeah, and the hippo......came into it somewhere in the song, sneaky bastard. he is now residing in a small log cabin somewhere in the heart of the antarctic (hardcore hippo), he runs a little freezer shop so that all the local inuits can come and buy freezers.
He is a very good salesman, you would have to be to sell freezers to inuits, in the antarctic.

Shit, now its 16:58, i was gunna be outta here by now to meet kieran....
This is why i am always bloody late! i get fucking distracted!

boiboi boys, boiboi gals
later days!
God

1.Loved someone? Yes
2.Missed someone so much it hurt? yup
3.Been drunk? i dont rememememememebr
4.Licked a pole in the middle of winter? yes
5.Laughed so hard some kind of drink came out of your nose? da
6. Stayed on the computer more than 12 hours? dunt think so, maybe
7.Hugged a stranger? tis fun
8.Tried to catch a chicken? only frozen chicken.....stil cudnt do it tho!
9.Danced in the rain? yup
10.Kissed someone of the opposite sex? da
11.Made out for more than 10 minutes? over all yes, in a row no!
12.Had a crush on your teacher? not really
13.Had a crush on your neighbor? no....small boys
14.Gone over the speed limit? in my uncles car
15.Shot a gun? not yet! dammit!
16.Threatened someone with a fork? so many times
17.Threatened someone with a spoon? so many more times
18.Slept in bed with a member of the opposite sex? Yes
19.Slept in bed with a member of the same sex? Yes
20.Waited by the phone for a call for over 6 hours? nah
21.Kissed a picture? possibly
22.Forgot your homework and stole your friends work so you would get marks? yup
23.Gotten in a car with people you just met? yeah
24.Played so much loud music that after you thought people were calling your name randomly? i think that anyway, mostly whne im in bed
25.Wondered what the hell is in jello? jell?
26.Cheated while playing a game? it makes it easier to win!
27.Slept past 4pm? (if so to what time?) yuh huh
28.Gone bungie jumping? YES
29.Stabbed someone with a piece of paper? yes
30.Got lost in your own house? refer to "have you ever been drunk?"
31.Been lost in a huge ass mall? yupo
32.Been in a car? ur an idiot
33.Rode a horse? yup
34.Wanted a pet but parents wouldn’t let you? da
35.Hated the way you looked? now and forever
36.Thought you were the worst looking person on earth? No, I know kieran
37.Poked a random person because you were bored? yup
38.Witnessed a crime? yup
39.Forgot what you were going to say? ummm?
40.Then randomly say it sometime later? k
41.Spat in someone’s food or drink? da
42.Fell asleep in class? da
43.Ever gone to school partially nude? yup
44.Was scared of a balloon popping? no, but i had a frind who was scared of balloons for this reason
45.Ran a red light? i never run
46.Touched a snake? yup
47.Ate so much junk food you threw up? No
48.Been on a plane for more than 3 hours? da
49.Gone to the opposite side of the world? canada eh?
50.Cried yourself to sleep? da
51.Wanted to die from embarrassment? dunt generally get embarrassed
52.Felt an earthquake? nein
53.Been to a night club? Yes
54.Danced until you dropped? no
55.Had a dream you married someone? no
56.Made your parents cry? yup
57.Been kidnapped? no
58.Scared people on Halloween? i dunt know
59.Ran away? sod off
60.Choked on something you weren’t supposed to eat? im getting bored now
61.Felt like someone your not? go away!
62.Spent all day, day dreaming in class? every day
63.Had a dog? no
64.Had a cat? 3
65.Had an unusual pet? (what was is?) a stick?
66.Had a cell phone? Yes
67.Thrown strange objects at random people? da
68.Owned more than 5 sharpies? no, but ive had plentie of blunts
69.Dated someone more than 5 times? da
70.Hated someone so much that you thought up weird ways of hurting them? yes
71.Forgotten someone’s name? who are you?
72.Failed a class? nope
73.Played a prank on someone? yes yes yes
74.Drank chocolate milk? Yes
75.Drank tea? Yes
76.Caught a snow flake on your tongue? Yes
77.Thought that chocolate milk came from brown cows? im not an idiot!
78.Sung in the shower?
79.Sat on top of a car? while on shrooms!
80.Fell asleep in a car? yeah
81.Been in a car crash? ive been on top of one
82.Had to go to the hospital? only to plant bombs
83.Been attacked by an animal? rabbit
84.Cried over someone? under sum1
85.Saw someone die? no
86.Had to stand on top of a chair to reach something? no, i am tall
87.Laid on your back and watched the clouds go by? yop
88.Stole something? No~ how dare you!!!
89.Stayed home sick? yep
90.Made a snow angel? yup
91.Been lonely? yup
92.Sang karaoke? yup, smooth criminal
93.Been considered a freak? all the damn time!......woot!